Well, Monday was a very bad day for my brother. He developed an infection or pneumonia I think. He had a 103 fever all day and his vital signs were way out of whack. The first 2 days after the wreck they were: Pulse was around 90-120, Oxygen Saturation between 95-100, BP was a little high but not that much and respirations were 10-15. When I went to visit him Monday after work they were much different. Pulse was up around 150-155, O2 sat was down in the 80s BP was down alot, and respirations were up in the mid 30s.. So I started asking questions b/c I know what normal vitals are and I knew that was FAR from normal and not good. The nurse gave me some pathetic answers that I knew was **** and suprise suprise, when the next visiting period came up the monitor showing his vitals was shut off, like they were hiding something. (I.E. They knew I knew what I was looking at and didnt want to answer any more questions..)
Well, around 11:30 or so they came out and told us his blood pressure was taking a nose dive and they are having trouble getting it back up. So they worked on him some and came back out to give us an update and let us go see him for a bit. Well, we went back there and I held his hand while I was watching the monitor and talking to him the best I could. I watched the vital signs plummet down into the single digits before I got out of there. Basically, I watched him die...
After that I ran back out into the waiting area and broke down, as I knew it was all but over. A few minutes later they called a code blue and 30 or so min later they came out and told us he was dead. They cleaned the body and let us come see him one last time. I went back there and held his hand. It was so cold I immediately broke down in front of him for the first time. I couldnt handle it, had to say goodbye and get out of there.
I still can not believe he is gone. It is starting to sink in some but I'm having a hard time believe it was truely his time to go. I'd be lieing if I said I wasnt questioning my faith right now. He had so much going for him, he finally had a girlfriend that treated him right, he was getting along with people alot better, helping out with things, taking medic school with me. Why did he have to be taken away from us? Life really sucks...
But the support I have gotten from all kinds of sources, you guys included had been awesome and has helped tremondously. It is greatly appreciated
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