Down, down, down into the rabbit hole. Tonight I sampled salvia--one of the strongest hallucinogens available. My exposure to drugs previously had been very limited. I have only had painkillers prescribed for two minor surgeries, a brief period of Ritalin for the ADD fad, encounters with alcohol countable on a single hand, and one special brownie that had no effect. A friend having mentioned it, I was interested in trying a very potent drug without any of the risks present in heroine or crack.
The experience was completely unlike described by my friends and especially television. I had been told I might see fractals or strange vision, that I might feel as if it was a dream like state, that there would be a period of euphoria following a very short "trip." I found none of this in my experience. To those familiar with salvia, I absorbed it through smoking and did so properly certainly bypassing the threshold quantity so I made no mistake in my dosage or application.
To others the situation appeared as thus. After inhaling I held it in my lungs for approximately thirty seconds, counting with my fingers to not only keep time to myself but as a sign of my own sobriety. After exhaling the effect kicked in almost instantaneously and I began laughing loudly and exclaiming "this is my room, holy **** this is my room," (in a stranger's house) for approximately five minutes before ending the trip and regaining partial awareness.
From my perspective the situation was very different. I assumed I blacked out sometime after inhaling and before exclamations of how someone else's room was my own. According to others (and a video) nothing else occurred between those two events so I had been conscious the entire period. I don't believe I truly hallucinated, or at least it was nothing like what I expected a hallucination to be. It wasn't so much that I saw the room as my own and wanted to tell everyone about it as it was I was not in control of my actions and my statements were like that of a seizing individual. There was only a brief period of time, mere seconds, where I saw the room actually as my own, and the rest of the time I was involuntarily making exclamations and had a strong feeling of familiarity (as if the room should have been mine). What I expected of a hallucinations was to see or otherwise sense strange images or feelings and be unable to distinguish them from reality, that I would be a fairly rational person wearing a virtual reality helmet feeding me false images. Instead I saw the world pretty much exactly as it was, but my body involuntarily acted on a false notion. After wards I felt no euphoria--at least it was indistinguishable from my normal state.
Overall it was largely disappointing. I can create stronger, more detailed, and more vibrant images in my mind through simple imagination while maintaining the sobriety necessary to enjoy them. Based on the very few but significant experiences I've had I can't imagine find any type of drug enjoyable. From pain relievers to alcohol to powerful hallucinogens they all seem to just dull and numb my mind making it more difficult to enjoy the world around me. The way I naturally perceive the world is far more stimulating.
So don't do drugs kids!