Lately, I've been finding FFXI to be very depressing. Like most people, I played this game to get the "online experience", to have meet all sorts of fun people. But now as I check my Play Time (18 Days) and look at my level 36 White Mage, I start to wonder. The people who play this game will determine whether this game is fun or not. But so far, the people aren't very nice. So is this game truly fun?
A friend that I will call "Jean" recently deleted a level 40 dragoon because smack talk about Jean playing DRG had gone too far. Group chat, linkshell, /tells... you name it. Jean's Armor's up-to-date. Uses food. KNOWS how to operate in a PT. But still, someone will always have something bad to say about Jean being a dragoon. Here's the best part. Two other higher level dragoons felt the same way, so the three decided to delete together to start out fresh. They're now Red, Black and White Mages.
I wish I could tell this friend that making a new White Mage means you'll meet better people. But of course, that's not the case. The people are the same. And even as White Mage, I find that people only like you because since White Mages are low in numbers, people gotta kiss up to the ones that exist. They don't care about you. They just need you so they can get their precious exp.
It's sad when you make friends on FFXI, only to have them disappear. It's more sad when they decide to talk to you again with:
"hey! how are you! can I have a Teleport-Mea?"
"been awhile! are you busy? think you can plvl me?"
How convienient for them to remember they are friends with me, a White Mage.
To be honest, I am jealous of "Jean". Yes, Jean is deleting a Dragoon along with two others. But because of their common experiences and their desire to continue playing FFXI but with better treatment, they formed a tight-knit group. Jean tells me about how exciting the future in Vana'diel will be with these two. Why haven't I made any friends like this? I haven't even made friends CLOSE to this.
Maybe I'm just being dramatic. After all, I did recently see that flash video of the JP White Mage and her static party, formed in Valkurm. Maybe I'm expecting too much. After all, this is just a game right? I should just join in the race and level up.
I don't know. Don't mind me, I'm only ranting... I may be fine tommorrow, or maybe not.
Edited, Sun Oct 17 08:52:41 2004 by Mailorder