So as most of u dont know shusio was never mine in the first place. I started playing 2 yrs after it came out and my girlfriend at the time decided she didnt want to go through the hassel of lvling a char. and bought shusio seeing how he was a lvl 52 whm.
Well things didnt work out with me and her. She wanted to spend money and not get a job so I ended up losing my brand new car and my house cuz of her. Kicked her out and I took over Shusio. Ive been in contact with the real owner of Shusio and he said he was proud seeing him grow up like he did. So in 7 yrs I took Shusio as a 52 whm to 75 along with 75 nin sam brd thf and rng to boot. Gained alot of gear. Met alot of friends. Lost alot of friends.
Reason I am saying all this is cause i never really looked as Shusio as mine. It never was and never will be. As for my recent actions. I totally lost it destroyed the linkshell I was so proud to have and deleted my account. Yet I sit here not satisfied. Why? I dont know. Maybe its the guilt of me caling Shusio mine this whole time?
I have been tossing the idea around in my head to quit for awhile now and some recent actions have fully led to my departure from ffxi. I didnt even really say goodbye to my friends.I just did it. All I could see what the hatred this game has caused me and turned me into a monster. . I was caught up in the moment of things and didnt care how I made the other ppl around me feel. I am truely sorry for this and I wish I could take it all back. But I cant and all I can do now is to move forward and hope for the best.
This game has done nothing but destroyed me and the ppl I was close too. I have grown to hate this game with a passion and just logging in makes me sick. This game has cost me alot. Way more then I care to remember. I dont even know why I am writing this. Maybe its to get it off my chest so I have one less burden to carry in my life as I try to move forward.
There is more to this saga but that is for another day.
Shu
Edited, Apr 30th 2010 10:43pm by Shusio
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Shu, I would like to say something deep, thoughtful, and endearing. But we both know that isn't my style, so instead I'll just say...get over it :)
We all smack our heads thinking about the stupid stuff we did in the past. Thankfully, at least you know NOW that it was stupid. It's hard to admit, but you really can't change the past. Instead, use it to change the future. Just add it to the "stupid things to avoid doing again" list and move on.
If I ever taught you one thing, Shu, it's that life is what you make of it. You may not have had Shusio originally, but he was yours the moment you took the helm. For better or for worse, you made him what he was. Personally, I'd like to think it was for the better.
Oh yeah...and you really need to get laid, dude! Games don't make people depressed.
....lack of sex does.
We all smack our heads thinking about the stupid stuff we did in the past. Thankfully, at least you know NOW that it was stupid. It's hard to admit, but you really can't change the past. Instead, use it to change the future. Just add it to the "stupid things to avoid doing again" list and move on.
If I ever taught you one thing, Shu, it's that life is what you make of it. You may not have had Shusio originally, but he was yours the moment you took the helm. For better or for worse, you made him what he was. Personally, I'd like to think it was for the better.
Oh yeah...and you really need to get laid, dude! Games don't make people depressed.
....lack of sex does.
Don't dwell so much on what you "did" or "didn't do"; but dwell instead on what you CAN do. Hindsight is always 20/20 Shu. Being an adult sucks sometimes; but everything we do, good or bad, has a lesson to be learned along the highway of life.
The character you say you "bought" was the Shusio we all knew and you made it what it was. Don't look for something to blame; sometimes we just need to accept what we did for what it was.
It's easy to sit and look back and reflect perfectly on what "should have been". Reflection on the past is always easy..going forward is what is the hardest.
I can tell you this:
You gave me a place to hang my healer's cap when I was torn between staying in a game that I loved for many years; or quitting completely and moving on.
You gave me in my brief time in Ichiban; friends, respect, honor, a sense of humor and you always ready to lend a helping hand. Small gestures sometimes mean the most. That's what counted for me.
So, it takes a big man to come on these forums and apologize and open him (or her) self up like you have done; and frankly, I respect you for that.
Life is short - learn from the experiences you have had here; whether you never play another minute in FFXI or not, enjoy the journey and move forward.
"The Phoenix Hope can wing her way through desert skies; and still defying fortune's spite, revive from the ashes and rise"
---- Miguel De Cervantes
The character you say you "bought" was the Shusio we all knew and you made it what it was. Don't look for something to blame; sometimes we just need to accept what we did for what it was.
It's easy to sit and look back and reflect perfectly on what "should have been". Reflection on the past is always easy..going forward is what is the hardest.
I can tell you this:
You gave me a place to hang my healer's cap when I was torn between staying in a game that I loved for many years; or quitting completely and moving on.
You gave me in my brief time in Ichiban; friends, respect, honor, a sense of humor and you always ready to lend a helping hand. Small gestures sometimes mean the most. That's what counted for me.
So, it takes a big man to come on these forums and apologize and open him (or her) self up like you have done; and frankly, I respect you for that.
Life is short - learn from the experiences you have had here; whether you never play another minute in FFXI or not, enjoy the journey and move forward.
"The Phoenix Hope can wing her way through desert skies; and still defying fortune's spite, revive from the ashes and rise"
---- Miguel De Cervantes
Thanks Fem and Sophus. Your always there for me. After quitting ffxi I just wanted to tell the truth about Shusio. Yes I know after he was bought he became mine. That is the Shusio you all know. I just wanted everyone to know how Shusio became to what he is today.
Edited, Apr 22nd 2010 6:01am by Shusio
Edited, Apr 22nd 2010 6:01am by Shusio
You know I really do have some awesome friends in this world ^.^
Oh don't mistake it, I am nobody's friend. I just believe you should always be helpful because...let's face it...you never know who has a hot sister they'd like to introduce you to!
SophusTehNewb wrote:
Oh don't mistake it, I am nobody's friend. I just believe you should always be helpful because...let's face it...you never know who has a hot sister they'd like to introduce you to!
Lol well u dont want my sisters.
I don't have a sister .... only a purrdddy daughter!
Sorry Fem, you had your chance! In other news, now that I'm just about married...I'm guessing I probably won't need to keep acting nice >:D
Ohhhhh Gruuuuuuuuuuunnntttiiiiiiieeeeesss
*sharpens knife*
Ohhhhh Gruuuuuuuuuuunnntttiiiiiiieeeeesss
*sharpens knife*
What do you want Soph?
We're busy with Fem's daughter.
We're busy with Fem's daughter.
O Im going to tell Fem. She isnt going to be happy about the grunties getting her daughter.
"Femwhispers readies Hexa-Stike" .....................................
:P
:P
femwhispers wrote:
"Femwhispers readies Hexa-Stike" .....................................
:P
:P
Oh, it was so worth it too.
Awwww someone didnt like my story. Bet its cuz I bought the account. Atleast its more then half these ppl will admit too that bil gil and hack and bot.
*sigh*
Wrong thread.
Anyway. Nice to see people I know still on here. Sort of. :P
Edited, May 11th 2010 2:15pm by doomygir
Wrong thread.
Anyway. Nice to see people I know still on here. Sort of. :P
Edited, May 11th 2010 2:15pm by doomygir
OMG SOPHIE!!!! <3 <3 *taruglompsnuggle*
Chi!!!! I wuv you [hugs]!!!!!
Honestly, I blame myself for Ichiban breaking and Shu leaving, I have that affect.
I came back for about a week last year. Last week that FableUnity was around. I log on, Sophus screamed, broke the shell and quit.
Now I come back again, hop onto Ichiban, Shu does the same damn thing.
I need a new linkshell now.........*sigh* so lonely doing campaign by myself.
But I'll always love you Shusio!!
I came back for about a week last year. Last week that FableUnity was around. I log on, Sophus screamed, broke the shell and quit.
Now I come back again, hop onto Ichiban, Shu does the same damn thing.
I need a new linkshell now.........*sigh* so lonely doing campaign by myself.
But I'll always love you Shusio!!
I call lies and slander. Everyone knows I didn't yell OR scream...I just warped the people I disliked to places they preferred not to be! :)
You threw sharp rocks at my head shouting "KILL IT, KILL IT!" and as your character logged off for the very last time you cuddled your Grunty plushie crying "it can't hump hurt us anymore".
SophusTehNewb wrote:
I call lies and slander. Everyone knows I didn't yell OR scream...I just warped the people I disliked to places they preferred not to be! :)
More Lies and Slander, everyone who was there that day, saw you weep like a little girl when Poki came on! 8P
Aww Poki I love you too. I will never forget when we first met in sky.
Who are you again?
How many times u gonna come in and destroy linkshells poki? :P
Edited, May 22nd 2010 1:17pm by Shusio
Edited, May 22nd 2010 1:17pm by Shusio
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