So as most of u dont know shusio was never mine in the first place. I started playing 2 yrs after it came out and my girlfriend at the time decided she didnt want to go through the hassel of lvling a char. and bought shusio seeing how he was a lvl 52 whm.
Well things didnt work out with me and her. She wanted to spend money and not get a job so I ended up losing my brand new car and my house cuz of her. Kicked her out and I took over Shusio. Ive been in contact with the real owner of Shusio and he said he was proud seeing him grow up like he did. So in 7 yrs I took Shusio as a 52 whm to 75 along with 75 nin sam brd thf and rng to boot. Gained alot of gear. Met alot of friends. Lost alot of friends.
Reason I am saying all this is cause i never really looked as Shusio as mine. It never was and never will be. As for my recent actions. I totally lost it destroyed the linkshell I was so proud to have and deleted my account. Yet I sit here not satisfied. Why? I dont know. Maybe its the guilt of me caling Shusio mine this whole time?
I have been tossing the idea around in my head to quit for awhile now and some recent actions have fully led to my departure from ffxi. I didnt even really say goodbye to my friends.I just did it. All I could see what the hatred this game has caused me and turned me into a monster. . I was caught up in the moment of things and didnt care how I made the other ppl around me feel. I am truely sorry for this and I wish I could take it all back. But I cant and all I can do now is to move forward and hope for the best.
This game has done nothing but destroyed me and the ppl I was close too. I have grown to hate this game with a passion and just logging in makes me sick. This game has cost me alot. Way more then I care to remember. I dont even know why I am writing this. Maybe its to get it off my chest so I have one less burden to carry in my life as I try to move forward.
There is more to this saga but that is for another day.
Edited, Apr 30th 2010 10:43pm by Shusio