I quit this game years ago but it always lingers in my heart. It was easier quitting smoking than quitting this game.
I miss those people that always put me in a good mood; Remided me of how good life was.
SE may have developed the biggest time sink ever, but that time sink forced people to bring out the best in themselves, or they just wouldnt be able to survive on the game.
Right now, im depressed.
Ever since i stopped playing FFXI, I kinda lost interest in other games.... Nothing was as good as FFXI.
years later, I would be at work visualizing the perfect set up, gear and advanced macro's,and then later realizing i will never be able to fully understand, and know that joy.
Right now, life- life has just been the biggest *** hole lately. I started to study various religions to combat this depression that always trying to get a grasp on my mind, i fight it so hard, and smile through everything, "Dont lose your cool, dont think negative, life is hard for everyone."
The only thing holding back a massive breakdown is and imaginary paper thin wall holding the depression back on the other side.(To top it off, my GF recently started using *** as a weapon, i **** her off im not gettin any)
Got me feeling pretty ****** to say the least.
Shiva, i just want you to know my friends, my thoughts are on you. Nothin but love for you guys, and you guys are super lucky your still playin the game you love.