Wow, there are so many people here pointing fingers, yet never viewing things from my side.
During my time playing this game, I've been forced to be a patient person (seeing as I am a Pre-Ranged Attack "Nerf" Monk, before people started thinking Ranger was a broken class, and that every other damage-dealer was superior, and it is
not). I have been forced to wait for many things due to my class (as other monks can agree, we're pretty much forced to be patient people).
During this time, I also tried to be as helpful as I could be to others. On another one of my Linkshells, Kapoks, I had helped others with rank missions, quests, anything, as much as I could (as they had assisted me greatly, I had Rank 5 and my airship pass before I was level 33). I had even given away a Scroll of Drain I had quested to a new player who joined the Linkshell because he was too scared to travel to San d'Oria from Windurst to even attempt to quest it (unknowing of the value of the scroll, and not regretting the act even after I learned it's price).
I had, however, decided to leave Kapoks, after the leader had dubbed MNK as a worthless job, after refusing me to join him on a Promyvion run he had planned. Soon after I applied for Benevolence.
During my time with Benevolence, until recently, I had tried as hard as I could to do the same. Except for one thing:
Tanta, the leader of Benevolence, had set a deadline, to be Level 60, Rank 6, by September 15, 2005. I had plenty of time to do this, but at the rate I had gotten invites, and the rate I could exp, I couldn't be as patient as I wanted to be.
I had joined one of the statics Benevolence had going, including in the mix was Shykre (our THF, turned BRD on the last days of the static), Akya (our WHM), Cadant (our RNG (who disbanded after the "Ranger Nerf"), and Pryssant (our PLD, and a damn good tank may I add). Contrary to the belief of the group, I had joined it for fun, since the usual pickup party brought more grief than anything in the tediousness that is slaying mob after mob, not for the "assured experience points" which they think I joined it for now.
During the static, I tried to be as helpful, or as generous, as I could. We leveled nightly, as much as our schedules could allow. I admit, I had turned up to the static late at times, more times than others, but so did the rest of them. Whenever we couldn't find a refresher, I would provide to Akya and Pryssant (who, whenever we couldn't find a refresher, also had Pineapples to synth into Juices available) Yagudo Drinks, as many as my inventory could hold, synthed with ingredients I bought with the gil from my own pockets (which was very little at the time, due to us levelling almost nightly, I could barely afford anything past the food and what Yagudo Drinks I could provide after each session). I would even give a share of them to whoever replaced Pryssant (who was absent a few times) to use so we could keep some steady chains.
The Yagudo Drinks, of course, did stop for the two sessions Shykre actually played his Bard, but I synthed them whenever a refresher was not available..
During our static, when convenient, we would go to areas and hunt for keys, and coffers, for our AF. During this time, I had been glad to pass on the coffer keys, to try to be
nice, and the members of the static that needed them (and, almost, at one point, someone outside of the static) got their keys before me. I remember one incident, after a key hunt in Garlaige Citadel, I had passed on the two keys that had dropped, so that Akya and Pryssant could get them, with the promise from Shykre and Cadant that the last key would be obtained the next day.
The static didn't meet the next day, and the next session we had didn't involve coffer keys in the least.
I had hoped I would have help from the static in obtaining my AF, as I had used my time just as much as they used their time to get what keys they got. The only piece they, as a static helped me obtain were the old gauntlets in Crawlers Nest (in which they couldn't even help me fight Darkspark for my final AF afterwards). My Garlaige Coffer key was obtained through a skillup party, not the static as intended, my AF Feet were duo'd (with, I admit, the help of the ever hate pulling Cadant, who was using his BLM at the time). My AF Hands, the Darkspark fight, was done for me by a BST Friend of mine (Shirok, who's name was attempted to be tainted on this forum by a troll who used his name). My AF Body and Legs were obtained when I went to help in some Testimony Farming for Cadant, and Damyen respectively.
The only item that I had gotten with at least half the static there was my AF Head, the Temple Crown, and that was through convenience alone, as I had come out to help Shykre (or was it Bon? Whoever it was, the AF involved an NM in both
Sauromugue Champaign and Garlaige Citadel, for the THF AF) with a couple AF Pieces, and we had spotted a coffer along the way.
During the time, after a Castle O. Raid (which was very succesful, our entire group making it to the top, several people completing their G3's doing so, and us killing the Yagudo's Avatar (some of us even joked afterward that we should have a T-Shirt made, which says "I survived the Yagudo Avatar's Astral Flow, and All I Got Was This Lousy T-SHirt")), Akya needed her G2 done (maybe Pryssant as well, I can not recall if it was the both of them or not).
Four of us (Gavian (or Caspion, one or the other), Shykre, Akya, and I, and Pryssant if he attended) fought, and killed, all three Boreal Mobs for Akya (and Pryssant if he did attend).
After the static finally disbanded, very close to the deadline, and me not 60 yet, I had recieved this compliment from Pryssant:
Quote:
Avelyn! <Incredibly though> Monk! for me you became like the stone basement where this static could build you where always here on the LS, ready to help any of us for anything he could need. Without you this statics couldn't be half of what it is right now. you are always giving help freely and you never ask anything in return. I'm glad to have been able to know you a little with this game because I think you are IRL one of the nicest person I can imagine... It was an honor to fight by you side for all those level. /salute!
During my time in Benevolence, I had only scheduled one event, a Shadowlord run, so I could reach rank 6, and meet the deadline. A very small amount of people even responded to it, fewer were even online the day of the event, and with connection issues (making me think I wouldn't be able to log on in time), the event never happened, and I missed the deadline which I had wished to make so I could stay in the shell. I willingly dropped my pearl afterwards, in which Cadant and Shykre helped a pickup party I joined complete 5-2, but I had already left the shell, and missed the original deadline.
After Tanta had reduced the requirements for the shell down from Level 60, Rank 6, to Level 40, Rank 4, I re-applied, as I wanted to be back with the friends I had been with since I joined the shell (minus Akya, who had missed the deadline herself, and left the shell due to University matters coming up).
During the month I've been back, I've been juggling a lot of things. School Work, lots of stress at home with the family, my grandmother being sent to a nursing home due to her breaking her arm, the activities of multiple linkshells (including more coffer hunts and recently a Five Hour Jelly Ring run for Rasengan in Kapoks (who wears his new ring proudly)), and I do not have a proper way to vent in real life, as nobody will even listen to me rant anymore. So I used the game for this purpose, and I admit some of my reactions have been hasty, I have cussed people out, and yesterday I made this post, wishing to at least go through the Promyvions, so I might join the rest of the members in Benevolence, who have gotten much farther in CoP than I have (or, at least to chapter three), so I could have some fun, in doing so relieve a large amount of stress, and attend their weekly (or every other week) CoP Mission Runs. I had even, on several occasions, expressed I still did not have the Promyvions done, and had openly complained that it was because people would not bring a MNK along (due to the "template" created by everyone too lazy to do any prep work), and it was Benevolence who I believed (then, more than now) would break out of that mold, and be willing to bring a MNK along on a run (in which they had done before, a Promyvion Holla, in which our WHM Disconnected, and our Party Wiped, and this was not repeated for those that had lost (Pryssant was in the group that had wiped)).
Last weekend Etho helped Pryssant complete all three Promyvions in one day. He did not even invite me along, (even if it was just to help in the Anima Farming!) even though I had said, on several occasions, I had needed the Promyvions, and had just recently helped his friend, Tempusdezire, reach rank 4, on a day I had stayed home from school sick, and was sleeping in my bed for as much of the day that I could. This is where I snapped, and where the decline started to where I am now.
So yes, this post is a bit hasty, it does point fingers where they don't belong, and yes I have snapped, and lost what patience I had, in order to get these done. I have openly said things I wouldn't normally say (or even
think!) during this time, all due to the stress I've been given over the past month. Think of me as you want, call me the next Intyoda, I don't care, just read this post, and use it to view things from my perspective before you carry on with those activities.
[Edit] Typos > Me -.-;;
Edited, Sat Nov 19 19:12:59 2005 by MadFriarAvelyn Edited, Sat Nov 19 19:26:35 2005 by MadFriarAvelyn Edited, Sat Nov 19 19:29:30 2005 by MadFriarAvelyn Edited, Sat Nov 19 19:20:47 2005 by MadFriarAvelyn Edited, Sat Nov 19 19:26:40 2005 by MadFriarAvelyn Edited, Sat Nov 19 19:42:57 2005 by MadFriarAvelyn Edited, Sat Nov 19 19:46:16 2005 by MadFriarAvelyn Edited, Sat Nov 19 19:51:39 2005 by MadFriarAvelyn Edited, Sat Nov 19 20:04:38 2005 by MadFriarAvelyn