Hopefully it was a mutual decision and it ends amicably.
As mutual as it can be. Neither of us really want it to end, but it turns out that I never really knew him. He said he was afraid if I did, I wouldn't want to be married to him. Turns out he was right, in a way.
We've always had problems with him being a little too friendly with other women, having friendships that seemed a little inappropriate to me. I always thought it was just me, that I was just too jealous, but it turns out that he just doesn't actually believe that anyone can actually stay monogamous, nor should they. He says he's never cheated on me, but I believe that's only because he hasn't found a woman that was willing to sleep with a married man at the places he worked, and he's too socially awkward to just go to a bar or something to pick up a one night stand. There were other things he was lying to me about during basically our whole marriage, like him keeping in contact with certain ex-girlfriends that, after counseling, he said he wouldn't talk to and going to lunch with co-workers when he knows that I was already suspicious of their relationship.
It never mattered how many times he broke my trust and I was upset, he just kept on doing it over and over. He admitted that he'd never change, and I can't live like this, so the best thing is to call it quits before we hate one another.
The problem is.... I'm basically destitute now. My current job doesn't pay ****, we only have one car, and even if I wanted to take it, I couldn't afford the car payment and insurance, and I'm on his health insurance.
Right now, I'm just trying to pack up my stuff while my mom and her husband drive down to pick me up. Then we'll see where to go from there.