I've had the belief for probably close to 10 years or more, that every religion out there is worshiping the same God(s) and Goddess(es), they just have different ways of going about it. That's one of the things that I love about religion as a whole, that there is so much diversity, and that if someone is willing to take the time to do some research, they can find whatever path fits them best.
I decided when I was 14 (I'm 34 now) that Celtic Magic and Faerie Wicca was the way to go which then led to what I referred to as a "reawakening" of my Druidic nature.. I still will not deny that the things that I have seen in a supernatural light were real and not hallucinations or delusions.. and I do not believe that all spirits are evil demons like many Christian. I was a Celtic-Shaman; I learned from spirits and guides of the sort that Maybe you can imagine; maybe you can't. I have attended covens; circles; (the biggest one in Salem Mass); I have channeled entities, I have conversed, lived with and seen fairies (real fey; not Elizabethan dolls), I have been paid as an oracle reading runes for hundreds of people, gave past life readings, teach people energy-working, aura-bending, I learned angelic languages from The Enochian teachings and of the ORder of the Golden Dawn, I have looked into the abyss and seen the abyss look back...
But in ALL of that the question still lingered always.. WHAT is the POint? Why?
The only thing that I would say that I didn't and couldn't know for sure; Was if everything is a endless Cycle or if there was an actual End/Oblivion/Nirvana.. I could not say...
I always believed in a Terminal Source of all Things and this Ultimate Source I knew was beyond anything that I could ever know.. beyond words, ego, beyond any petty good and evil, beyond masculine and feminine..
That is why I could never really truly get with Wicca.. because Wicca celebrated the archetypal Mother and Father God and Goddesses and I knew that the Truth was even beyond that..
My problem came when I would meditate still on the Purpose... If the Source had a purpose.. then why did I do prayer and spell-work to change things? Why did I not trust in the Source to provide everything? I rationalized this by saying that by participating and adding my personal energy into the world that I was harmonizing myself to the world and to the Universe.. and I ALWAY rejected any religion that tried to pinpoint an actual Rule or claimed to come from Humans.. I felt that it could ONLY come from something that I myself had experienced from my Pathworking and meditations.. the whole time ignoring that I myself was a creature of the flesh and limited and that in this state any power that I have will always be dwarfed by something larger than myself..
I started realizing that even with a million Dreamtime experiences and no matter how powerfully I could meditate on my higher, eternal "God-Self" that there still could be no complete and sure point to any of it.. that I still did not create the universe.. It Became obvious to me that something ELSE is actually in Total control of the Ocean and that was simply splashing around in my Own pond and that ONE day.. perhaps..that "Something" may decide to pull the plug on the drain of that Ocean.. and no matter HOW well I can teach myself to swim.. even if I grew fins and learned to breath underwater.. that it is impossible to stand up against the Will of the Universe.. Impossible.
Anyway. If you are completely happy then you are happy.. but understand that no matter how much you meditate.. no matter how many times you dance under the stars and no matter how many spirit friend you make.. you are still a created being. You did not create yourself. All spirits are created being and all spirits whether in the flesh or out of the flesh will be held accountable and all will be found wanting if they reject what is right in front of their face because they want to take the place of the creator and usurp the authority of The Source.
. I want no part of a religion which has this idea that "I'm right and you're wrong,
I understand that you want it your way in every way. That's the human way; and we are all very selfish in that way..
but haven't you ever wondered IF there MAY be an actual wrong way? It's There is up there's down, there's down; there's left there's right, there's dark, there's light.. but ALL OF A SUDDEN when if comes to possibly offending somebody we just conveniently ignore that there MAY be correct and incorrect. If the logic center of your mind doesn't recoil in horror at this neglect of such a simple concept then you are completely in denial; this surpass any religious motive... It only makes sense
Excuse me for having an independent thought, but I want to know why something is wrong before I choose to agree or disagree that it is wrong.
Why do you think that YOU get to decide the standard for right and wrong? Did YOU create the Universe?
Women have been treated like utter **** in the last 2000 years because of what it says in the Bible. Actually, probably closer to 6000 years I suppose, since the Old Testament is just as guilty.
Come ON; RIght; because only the Hebrews in Christians have treated women unfairly throughout history.. Give me a BREAK.
I will not deny that women have always been treated unfairly; but not as unfairly as anything else; Women and minorities etc don't get treated unfairly (per se) because of religion.. they are treated unfairly out of ignorance, pride, and greed.
"And it harm none, do as thou wilt."
This was another problem I had with Wicca. As a Druid (and yes I still consider myself a Druid in trying to keep those around me in proper touch and balance with the other world: it's what we do and it's all we do; everything else is a distraction) but as a Druid I knew that by observing and experiencing the energy of nature that to simply assume that whatever you do will always "harm none" is an illusion. We have no control over who we harm; we can try very much but it is impossible and it is against every law of the universe.. You cannot ignore the forces of destruction and only pay creed to creative forces.. it is an imbalance and it is dangerous.
You are asking me to go against my nature as a shaman and a druid. Shame on you.
Ask anyone here that has known me; this IS what I do and it is ALL that I do; everything else is trivia.
Do ya'll think that I am unaware of how much of an narrow-mind d;ckhead I sound to you right now? I know and I used to give the same argument against what I am saying here against organized religion.. I STILL think organized religion is the wrong way to go.. but most people in the world are not strong enough not to join a club.. it is in our social nature.
That is the thing about Christianity though.. you do NOT have to have some vast understanding of the universe.. you do not have to be in tuned with the patterns and energies of the earth... you do not have to meditate.. you only have to believe and be saved and accept perfect eternal infinite salvation. You do not have to be able to comprehend the Source of All Creation.. only The Anointed One who is The Source incarnated on the earth. It is the only path in the end.
SO whatever.. mock me, rate me into oblivion; does it matter to me that most of you will probably ignore these words and gloss over all of this and scoff at your screens and use me as the object of your scorn? Not really; but I really think that it matters to you..
..and I enjoy writing these walls-o-text because it helps me keep it straight to myself as well.. So whether or not no one ever accepts anything that I say here or if everyone rejects it.. either way; I know I have done my job and I am happy doing it.
Shalom Edited, Dec 16th 2011 6:10pm by Kelvyquayo