I wouldn't really say bitter; it's closer to annoyed. We got your YYR *for* you, on your first active week in the shell. You got AHead the next week. You seemed active, and helpful. Honestly, I liked you. The whole shell liked you. Honestly, most still do, since they don't know why you left. I've been discreet. I'm not a drama *****. But, I want to be fair to the linkshell leaders or recruiters who may also be looking at this post. You're looking for an HNM and Dynamis shell. Then I'll share my experiences with Urika in HNM, and Urika in Dynamis.
In HNM, my shell is rarely active. We don't use bots, so we don't expect claims. It's just a distraction when we're all bored and want to do something as a group. At our most recent "Fafhogg camp", if you can even call it that, Urika logged in and was persuaded to join us in the Aery. He didn't know the way to the Aery well, but we were all already below the one-way drop and simply attempted to guide him via text. He made it as far as the Voloptuous Vivian spawn area before asking, in the ls, "Do I still need sneak here?". 5 of us immedietely answer "Yes". But, of course, it's "too late", and he's dead without RR a few meters from the zone. We tell him we can't run backwards to him because of the one-way drop, and he'd have to wait for the Rdm in Zi'tah to get there for him. He HPed, and said "I don't think I'm gonna be able to make Fafhogg, guys :/", and just went to Campaign.
In Dynamis, Urika only participated once before his departure. It was a very low-man Dynamis Jeuno, with only one Whm. Attendence was sour that day. Urika was asked to heal, and did not take kindly to it at all. Everyone lost a fair bit of exp that day. ****, my Nin buffer was reduced to a mere 2k; but I got it back to cap in 2 hours on birds :/ it wasn't that hard. He had been whining the whole day about exp loss, his buffer, and hating to have to heal in merit parties. After losing significantly less exp than some others in Dynamis, Urika decides to leave the shell cuz wii r nubs hu dye lotz.
Honestly. Don't expect to go into an HNMLS and never be asked to heal or buff. You'll never be able to properly function as part of a team that way.
Best of luck,