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#1 Mar 03 2012 at 11:45 AM Rating: Decent
Recently i got around to read the book the lord of the rings by Tolkien. I was so slacking off and then this. I wasn't expecting it. It didn't suprise me, but i certainly wasn't expecting. My life was a bit dreamish-nightmarish touched before, but it turned into hellish.

You probably already guess it.

I'm a complete outcast, having no ties to anybody, but that doesn't make Your head free. You CAN'T even have a free head in this world. It's impossible, i could even tell You why (it has something to do, with what they call magick)*).

I got rashes, everything is itching and scratching, at least dreaming became stable. I reinscribed to university rather quick and am working on 'my' metaphysics to get my head clear, but it's so hard to coin into words, even though it's an extraordinary simple principle (it's about evil and not-evil nuff said **); sounds cheesy, but it seems to be a fact). Probably i shouldn't even have bothered at all, because the existance of idiots is nothing that needs prove.

Things fell into place so fast (unfortunately not instantly) that's why i am relenting in a loathing way.

The worst part is my connection to this guy:

http://wissenschaftsclub.at/typo3temp/pics/4dedb8126e.jpg

Inevitably i thought (and that proves my poor reading) he must like, what this is all about, but the more i found out, the more obvious it became that he is the guy, who'll (just about) least like this, because he wants to remain hidden. All of them want to remain hidden behind facades. (That's just how <gory> this is.)


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X6_RZhh44NY (Sailormoon Intro) got a boyfriend, who is probably, hopefully? a pirate http://www.feuerwerksvitrine.de/feuerwerk-artikel/210076.jpg still...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=djV11Xbc914&ob=av2n (Take on me) same girl
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WpmILPAcRQo (Dirty Dancing Ending)

and Liv Tyler, are motherhood and marriage supposed to be fake?

DID you know that she is international spokesperson of Givenchy?


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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V5L9pvwKSjE&ob=av2n (HiM - Heartkiller)

'top hats off to the return'...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qrP4c0m_Zi0 (Madonna -Celebration)
(i'm not @#%^ing with you: Does something catch Your eye?)




obviously i couldn't catch Amroth http://muskelkater.files.wordpress.com/2009/10/amor_mit_pfeil.jpg?w=600 (Amor is an entirely different guy). i plainly couldn't see the trail. I wouldn't have thought of it. 'If people continue doeing everything just for fun, eventually somebody will kill/shoot for fun. << did You see it? I still do have to get him, but now it a) doesn't change a thing anymore and b) it's much harder: do i care about going to prison/mental institution? why don't i just fill pages and pages with COMPLETE garbage and make certain everybody is able to read the crap i write? Know what, i'd LOVE to kill somebody, just anybody.

Awsome is Liam Neeson. It looks, like he'd be completely for <me>, but he really is @#%^ing with me. Best is 'five minutes of heaven' (assumption probably being: once i figure out, i'll have my five minutes of heaven and everything is going back to normal) THEY http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yCto3PCn8wo are even the worst. I wouldn't have minded if i would have felt that way.

I don't have the best of families. My dad turns out even to be Satan, who is Poseidon (god of the sea, without the surrounding oceans), who later became Odin, is the 'father' in christian believe, supreme ruler of the world. ('Qwerty' seriously)
http://img99.imageshack.us/img99/8537/klemensfotos.jpg

So i am god 'the almighty' then.


Guess, who this guy is: http://cache2.allpostersimages.com/p/LRG/10/1062/3YUL000Z/poster/hugo-weaving.jpg the egyptian sun god




They knew, the second i find out, i'll get raped. I started painting: http://www.kunstnet.de/KlemensKellner, but i just atarted out) Anyhow... according to 'You don't mess with the Zohan' we are supposed to make the sound later on. This all has to go away: bad jobs, boredom, suckiness in general, povetry, (hunger), disease, age, .. the plague we supposedly already defeated, Gandalf and me) Man, i'm so mad still. If you want to see this WoW (because i play again recently) who, intentionally, or not, tried to figure out possible scenarios, we are Nerubians. At least, i figure, because Nerubians don't trust. (I lost any trust years ago, when i became what they call schizophrenic (ugly disease). So i guess i have to cure schizophrenia, man i couldn't think of anything better to do. It's basically a mental dieseas which seems to come from sh*t inside peoples heads.


*) I don't know, if You are familiar with the term 'your inner child'. Magick works by working out what you want with your 'inner child'. Turns out your 'inner child' is this guy: http://bilder.filmstarts.de/r_450_x/medias/nmedia/18/74/83/96/19263789.jpg (It's, no matter, what You do, You need to cut a deal with Your inner child. Some are plainly 'more aware' about this *cough*) In other words, nothing Hopkins doesn't get, will ever work.

**) It's complete free will. 'Sucks, huh?' (What you gonna do? You can't just say it sucks. It's a fact. What you gonna do about it?)



FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c-60thcqJWw (HiM - The beginning of the End (sad damn version))


The ..'deadly viper assassination squad' does really exist

Rihanna
Björk
Him
The pretty reckless

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#2 Mar 03 2012 at 12:03 PM Rating: Excellent
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#3 Mar 03 2012 at 12:23 PM Rating: Good
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why don't i just fill pages and pages with COMPLETE garbage
Can't be worse than any number of regular posters.
#4 Mar 03 2012 at 1:15 PM Rating: Excellent
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I'm confused, is this some sort of spam bot? I see gibberish and random links and get scared. Hold me.
#5 Mar 03 2012 at 1:37 PM Rating: Good
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I'm at work so I can't/won't click those links.


So tell me: Is the OP even weirder if I see the links?

'Cause that's some high-grade LSD right there.

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I'm confused, is this some sort of spam bot? I see gibberish and random links and get scared. Hold me.
Well the links that are there seem to be benign. I'm assuming the reason for four edits are because whatever sneaky link it tried to insert didn't work.
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I checked all the links. other than the poster apperently being German, it was mainly just random links to things. I thought it might be a youtube link gather spammer, but the links all go to official videos for various artests, etc. So, clearly insane, but probably harmless.
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I'm confused, is this some sort of spam bot? I see gibberish and random links and get scared. Hold me.

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#10 Mar 03 2012 at 5:37 PM Rating: Decent
This will not end well.

Lizard Sie müssen raus und erleben Sie die reale Welt. Zu Hause sitzen weinend darüber kommt man nicht überall!

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Dread Lörd Kaolian wrote:
So, clearly insane, but probably harmless.


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#12 Mar 03 2012 at 6:48 PM Rating: Good
I was turning Japanese earlier. I have to wait a bit to try again.
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#14 Mar 03 2012 at 10:38 PM Rating: Good
Friar Bijou wrote:
I'm at work so I can't/won't click those links.


So tell me: Is the OP even weirder if I see the links?

'Cause that's some high-grade LSD right there.

Edited, Mar 3rd 2012 12:47pm by Bijou


Dread Lörd Kaolian wrote:
I checked all the links. other than the poster apperently being German, it was mainly just random links to things. I thought it might be a youtube link gather spammer, but the links all go to official videos for various artests, etc. So, clearly insane, but probably harmless.


They are links to german youtube (mostly), which is unfortunate, because i wouldn't know, how to link correctly. (One unlabled link was incorrect, i fixed that now)

insane.. yah. rather. probably harmless.. nother thing that adds up to me being mad. Fairly harmless. I hit that blonde guy a black eye and was charged for injury and stalking later, because i wrote him mail. (Obviously this makes me calm.. they were dropped anyhow. still.) My awsome parents lookd to it though, that i was institutionalized and i was forbade the possession of arms. So all the handgranades, the plastic explosives and the Flak cannon that was standing in my garden were all confiscated. Ridiculous.

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This will not end well.

Lizard Sie müssen raus und erleben Sie die reale Welt. Zu Hause sitzen weinend darüber kommt man nicht überall!

Edited, Mar 3rd 2012 6:40pm by Tailmon



Thank You. Doesn't look, like this could end well .... like 'There's only two ways this can end'

Most certainly i am not crying i had wealths of nervous breakdowns years ago, so i'm past the point of despairing and crying. I so wished i COULD cry. But i mostly have a funny stomach a lot.

I try doing normal stuff, like university and playing computer, but i think in my situation i shouldn't really tried that on the one hand, on the other hand i had a clinical condition in the first place and was (and am) standing there completely on my own. I don't know, if you have watched 'Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas' (i didn't, one of the Johnny Depp movies, i didn't watch), but it is a bit like in the scene in the bar. Try not to freak out in a situation like this.

My awsome mother noticed something to be wrong with me and tried to help, by explaining a psychiatrist i would have attacked her with scissors. She always felt, i need treatment, but i KNOW that i just need my parents to get off my back.


Do You know the movie 'Doctor Strange' http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0910865/?

What in gods name would the archchristian Tolkien want of rabble like me? (I assumed somehow trying to get rid of me at first, but i couldn't shake the feeling this wasn't what this was all about).


One of the most mistportrayed charaacter in the lord of the rings (besides Boromir) movie definitely is Grima. (May catch your eyes in the video 'Hot'n'cold' by Katy Perry.) I so not missed that guy. Still in the sould buying buisness? Wait a second? They sincerly sold their souls? Like Eminem and Snoop Dog and Katy Perry and Bob Dylan.

By know i know, what this is all about (from Jacks side): In California Gurls Katy Perry sings 'she knows a place, where the grass is really greener'. Such a place does exist. When you feel life is (just) good, everything will look like painted (and this goes for all senses). You probably know the feel from eating, when you are really hungry and you got a great meal to eat. So that's what they are all about.

Edited, Mar 3rd 2012 11:42pm by TheLizard
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#16 Mar 04 2012 at 4:25 AM Rating: Decent
Lizard,

Sie sollten professionelle Hilfe suchen. Beratung und einen Plan, damit Sie wieder in die Gesellschaft. Ohne sie wird weiter zurückgezogen und sozial ungeschickt. Ich weiß, dass Deutschland eine gute soziale Gesundheitsversorgung hat. Verwenden Sie es.
#17 Mar 04 2012 at 7:45 AM Rating: Decent
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Sie sollten professionelle Hilfe suchen. Beratung und einen Plan, damit Sie wieder in die Gesellschaft. Ohne sie wird weiter zurückgezogen und sozial ungeschickt. Ich weiß, dass Deutschland eine gute soziale Gesundheitsversorgung hat. Verwenden Sie es.



Thanks Tailmon, but it is more what Jophiel said.



I just need to blare down some people in my close vicinity, which hopefully is done soon. (I'm SO exorbitantly mad, about being mad.) Then things should settle and there is some stuff i need to turn my attention towards. Saurons Lieutnant really is already waiting for me (i wouldn't have guessed): You probably didn't notice (and i'm not certain, if it is the same in the states, but in europe, over the course of the couple last years they settled for a Bentham based consequentialistic ethic that every decision in politics and so on is based on. (It's about maximizing total happiness.) The alternative economy settled for is an aristotelic virtue ethic (because they can't focus on maximizing revenue these days anymore). BOTH suck.

..it says something about liberalism over Jophiels Avatar. I hate liberalism. Denethor is THE liberal. I think this guy (Thor, Jupiter) is nobody else, but Warren Beaty, who may have invented HipHop http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0118798/

also: http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0077663/ that's a bit too liberal for my taste

we'll settle for grassroots anarchy

(you may know my 'logo' http://www.allmystery.de/dateien/uh60967,1282558459,anarchy.jpg)

Edited, Mar 4th 2012 9:10am by TheLizard
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As far as I know, schizophrenics have auditory hallucinations, sometimes going on ALL THE TIME. It's rarer but possible for them to have visual hallucinations. There is a theory that the hallucinations are a breakdown in the separation between REM sleep, and the conscious awake mind. Basically the theory is that a schizophrenic is dreaming/having nightmares while awake. No, they don't have multiple personalities, that's DID, Dissociative Identity Disorder.

If TheLizard is a schizophrenic, I think it's safe to say that paranoia is part of the package.

Well wishes. Smiley: frown
#19 Mar 04 2012 at 11:19 AM Rating: Good
Yeah, schizophrenic. Exactly how my sister's writing goes when she's off her meds (and even when she's on them...)



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As far as I know, schizophrenics have auditory hallucinations, sometimes going on ALL THE TIME. It's rarer but possible for them to have visual hallucinations. There is a theory that the hallucinations are a breakdown in the separation between REM sleep, and the conscious awake mind. Basically the theory is that a schizophrenic is dreaming/having nightmares while awake. No, they don't have multiple personalities, that's DID, Dissociative Identity Disorder.

If TheLizard is a schizophrenic, I think it's safe to say that paranoia is part of the package.

Well wishes. Smiley: frown


Well put.

Have You watched Indiana Jones and the Crystal Skull? There's a insane person in that movie and it's just how to treat insane people. I'm not too fond of meds*). (and i am able to do exams on university in that condition.. and to impress the girls at the same time, but that's probably just my good looks)

Also i got the theory, although it's more a hypothesis i just came up with, a proposition so to speak: Everybody is mentally diseased and some are not, which is called schizoprenia and causes sever nerve issues.


What Aripyanfar said is also the reason, why you picture insane people screaming: When you'll scream in dreams, you wake up. I'll make this nightmare end for everybody, by 'blaring' down the (St.) King.



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It has something to do with this.

Edited, Mar 4th 2012 4:31pm by TheLizard


I think, you still don't get me: Everybody is like, why would you want to have something to do with me of all people? Obviously this made me insane and puts me in an extremely awful predicament.

Edited, Mar 4th 2012 4:46pm by TheLizard
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As far as I know, schizophrenics have auditory hallucinations, sometimes going on ALL THE TIME. It's rarer but possible for them to have visual hallucinations. There is a theory that the hallucinations are a breakdown in the separation between REM sleep, and the conscious awake mind. Basically the theory is that a schizophrenic is dreaming/having nightmares while awake. No, they don't have multiple personalities, that's DID, Dissociative Identity Disorder.

If TheLizard is a schizophrenic, I think it's safe to say that paranoia is part of the package.

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Having such extreme DID that you have multiple personalities is already extremely rare. I suppose it's theoretically possible, like winning the Lottery twice in a row. But I don't know enough medicine to know if there's some mutually exclusive factor.

I'd be interested if ONE of the alters of a multiple personality had schizophrenia, while the others did not. That could be theoretically possible, again barring the exclusionary principle.
#24 Mar 05 2012 at 11:51 AM Rating: Decent
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good that you bring that one up.. has a bit something to do, with why i am rather mad.


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See it this way: We all got voices in our subconscious minds, made up of people we encountered and witnessed. We picture people rather quickly and accurately (in our subconsciousness). These 'voices' some are more local, some are more global, shape our own thought and with that indirectly also our emotions obviously. Also we obviously build our dreams out of all this, when sleeping.

When you are schizophrenic everything blurs.

If this wasn't the case, everybody would start doing awsome stuff, why wouldn't everybody? << That's a vital point to me: Why isn't everybody doing awsome stuff? (rethoric question obivously) Question to You: Do you theoretically even want to do awsome stuff? (very theoretically)

I think you'll become schizophrenic, when you start doing things (or try to) people don't want you to do (like stuff, you consider awsome).


Healthy obviously is to have all Your experiences healthy stored in your subconsciousness. Leaking obviously isn't the way to go.


When i say, your own thought is influenced by beings in existance



Currently i'm very possessed by Pippin, which this is all about, whom i should have written a decent letter that outlines what is on. Pippin is one of the bad guys (both of them are), just btw. 'I'd rather die then write this guy a letter or talk to him at all.' This is stuff i am thinking. (Are you aware of this single guy, who holds half the world in check? Sounds like exaggerating, isn't it? He is one of the single greatest nuisances in existance.) Obviouisly I, of all people, ultimately have to deal with him. I hit him a black eye. Obviously this doesn't work that way with that guy (i mean who..)

'So you are Aragorn and aren't able to get past Pippin?'



Well it looks like (from that point of view and i am god of arts and science) that the strategy is more or the less that important voices aren't where you thought them to be and consequently aren't thinking of you, what you might think they are thinking of you. (The power of reason allows for that, which comes from Stephen King, the Witchking, who is the single most destructive force to mankind.) - Like the almighty for example.


Don't get over excited yet, because they all are still there obviously.


I DO distinguish between rationality, intelligence and wits here, which are entirely different entities. (As you may see intelligence is more or the less idle currently.)


I can't rationalize per se. What i also can't and this might be rare, i can't do anything in my best interest, which rationality would prompt you to. (Theoretically this isn't necessary.)





I'll SOO suicide. About HOW ****** up all this turned out to be for me. It's not so bad, until you realize how all of this was planned to work out. (Rare that there is a plan behind your life. I guess this was BOUND to turn out be a FULL ***** up, but it



Anyhow, you'll see where this is going soon enough anyhow. (Obviously, 'if' (personally i am rather convinced about all this) any of this holds true, it WILL be visible.)

(Pippin is god of cruelty btw. I don't know if you got that little devil in english, but in german we do have the term 'cruel god'. Sounds more powerful then he is, but he is more powerful then you probably thought.)



They are basically trinkets i can't get rid off: Merry is always merry and the source of all Merriness on the planet. and Pippin is just Prick enough to exist. (me is neither) I think i have them for since forever already. I hate them. Obviously they are fully against anything that would stop them from existing and being merry. (Problem is everything that would achieve that would make me cease exist also.) (Merry is the god of marriage - both will get degodiefied. Obviously the ring is the wedding ring.) They are ugly pricks. Obviously both of them want to be great heroes, by defeating Aragorn. (They are surprisingly successful.)

Does this last paragraph make any sense to anybody? (It doesn't make any sense to me.) Who does this to me?! This is too much for my nerves.
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#26 Mar 05 2012 at 11:57 AM Rating: Decent
lock/ban incoming (if stuff like this exists on here) for spamming and trolling. Otherwise i'll most likely continue posting here. There is hardly anything else that would prevent me from doing so.

Edited, Mar 5th 2012 12:59pm by TheLizard


Wait a second... there in fact is something that might stop me. A change in my life situation. You wouldn't want to drop Pippin a line or two? (Most likely not, but at least i can try.)

(It's pronounced 'Watts' as a matter of fact, because he is half american -.-)


I guess it comes across rather ***** to have a problem with a guy, if you aren't a girl. But what i gonna do?

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