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Sometimes I feel like my head is spinning, and not in a vision, or a hearing, or even in a philosophical sense. My head just spins to one point where my outlook is good and my plans are going on track, then I'll think of some minor flaw in my plans and it will feel like I'm just walking around because I just can't sit down and stop. The flaw begins as a crack and I have to keep poking at it until it's the Grand Canyon which completely stops me in my tracks. If I leave it alone that crack if the first thing to make me fall flat on my face and there's nothing I can do, but it makes it harder find the flaws because I'm still dizzy from taking a tumble which just makes it harder on everyone. So I'm sitting here feeling like there's something I need to do, I need to get up and do something. I have no money, I have no means of doing exactly what I need to do. I've been wearing prescription sun glasses for the past 4 months because I finally get down to calling the eye doctors everyone says accepts my insurance but they say that it's not covered, so I have no where to go but I keep on going.

If I don't get 8 hours of sleep I start to feel sick, and I start to get angry and I just feel like I wanna cry but for some reason everyday I feel tired. I've gotten maybe 4 hours of sleep in the last 2-3 days and my head is spinning, I can't think, I can' read, I can't watch TV and seems like everyone in real life is out to get me, or getting in my way. I've been in a constant state of slurring and mush mouth since work last week, I don't think I can handle it another day before I pop and take it out on my dad or my other family members but I have no way to get the pressure out, and it keeps building, and building. I just want to sleep but if I sleep I'll wake up to my white trash neighbors fighting, or the Mexicans next door working. I just don't care enough to stop it, or it's been such a static thing in my life that I usually live through it or put with it, without rude or unorthodox behavior. I finally get some sleep last night and I wake up 3 hours late to that feeling that **** is just not going to work out.

Excellent advice.

I forget, are you seeing a therapist of counselor of any kind? Seriously, dude we've suggested this before. Every time I hear something like this from you it only makes me want to start a fund in your name just to pay for it.

Try drinking 1/2 of one of those Wine Coolers, and get some ear plugs.

If that doesn't work.... an hero.

I may try for the ear plugs, I never actually thought of that ]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]

That's untrue. They arn't there to solve your problems. They help you solve them yourself. It sounds like you either have a foregone conclusion drawn in your head or had a bad therapist. They let you talk and then ask you a question that allows you to uncover something on your own. Any asshat on the street can tell you to get out, make friends, eat right, get in shape, bla bla bla. If you're having trouble finding the root of the issue then maybe you should actually try it. What do you have to lose?

You're going to call his Mom?

It doesn't always work that way.
Last time I went to a therapist, what I wanted was thrown to the wayside for someone elses desires.

There are a lot of bad therapists out there. But when you find a good one who actually "gets" you, then they are a LOT of help. I'm really glad my husband is finally open to us going as a family.

Sounds to me like you could really use some pills.

No one here said to go to a doctor.. We said go to a therapist. And every person knows pills aren't for everyone. I happen to prefer myself on pills than off though. Yeah, I hate taking them. I hate that I have to take them. But I hate being off them even more. I don't like the mood swings. I don't like forgetting 2-5 hrs at a time monthly. I don't like shaking uncontrollably.

Maybe you're fine and happy with how you feel, but by the sounds of things, you don't. So you really need to ask yourself, what's stopping you from helping yourself..

Everyone is going to tell me to take pills. That's a fact

Pills are like candy that makes you feel like candy.

I love pills.

I actually have to force myself to never be around them other than once a year.