I started playing this game back in EN release. 3 or 4 years of old school dynamis really has put me off of 18-36+ content. Pre-abyssea I was ready to walk away, but several friendships kept me logging in most days. All of us knew that we didn't like playing much anymore but things like linksshell loyalty and oldschool friendships kept us together for a time. Just when we subconsciously knew it was done, abyssea came out. All of us fell back in love with ffxi because it enhanced what we loved most about it, the ability to schedule a few nights a week where 6 or so of us could meet and get **** done together without any of the BS while enjoying each others company while marveling each others feats and laughing at our failures. That took us along the ffxi road for a few more years. We all achieved more goals in any then we ever really wanted. Hell, I am 100/100 +1's and 78/100 +2's.
Then VW came out and we all collectively groaned at the forced 18 man(shout group only for us), 2 steps backwards way of doing things. Some of us tried it, some refused to. I myself did some VW, but after going something like 0/150ish on anything I really wanted I stopped really trying. Things pretty much went back to a pre-abyssea mentality after a bit longer. Only logging in to say hi to a friend or because that one guy in the LS that always helped people do things and passed on gear for other people wanted to go back into sky for his kitty pants for nastalgias sake.
Then we heard of a new expansion and a new director that gave us all hope that he would save the thing that over 10 years had brought us all together. As it turns out, this new director took us even further away from the ffxi that we all loved. Nothing but sad and depressing alliance content where no one talks to anyone and we are all just using one another to further our own goals. None of the personal interactions that made grouping together with strangers fun when this game was new.
Fast forward to the present, 2/3rds of my close friends have quit for good. I myself have logged on 3 or 4 times in the last few months and only long enough to look for any friendly faces and find none. I have done a few delve runs and they were successful but its one of those dynamis this where you can only go on a job you hate/fight not to fall asleep playing(whm for me). After I was done for the night, I logged off and had to ask myself if this was something I wanted to do for the foreseeable future? The question alone was sort of depressing and I still have yet to answer it.
So now I turn to the wisdom of the player base. Has FFXI merely outgrown me as an individual with its alliance only or gtfo with game/gear progression or is there hope out there for this old FFXI vet?
P.S. This is the longest thing I have ever typed up on a mobile device so please forgive any auto-corrects or general grammatical failures on my part.